I feel guilty about not blogging.
I haven’t blogged on a consistent basis since July 2018. That month I had planned to write a bunch of blog posts and schedule them out for that fall… but then my best friend’s apartment burned down and my focus turned from blogging to being with her during that tragic time.
Nothing wrong with that. In fact, I’d be worried if my focus had been on blogging rather than on my friend.
However, after the fire, I just never felt in the “blogging mood.” Inspiration rarely hit me. I didn’t know what to write about. I felt stuck. And I want to come clean about that. I want to be honest with you and share that for the first time in years, I was experiencing a major writer’s block.
Scratch that- I AM experiencing writer’s block.
In addition, for a while now Joy Because Grace has been a place where I’ve written to single girls. My boyfriend, Caleb, and I have been dating for just over 2 years now. And as the months pass that we’re dating, I feel more and more distant from my single-self who wrote posts about singleness on this blog.
Right after we started dating, being single was still fresh on my mind. Not a lot of time had passed, so I was able to reflect on my feelings and struggles as a single and write about them then.
But lately… I just… I struggle to write about the struggles (and/or joys!) that come with singleness whilst I’m dating. Maybe it’s from reading YouTube comments on videos where Christian married couples offer encouragement & advice for singles. People bitterly comment that the YouTubers can’t possibly relate to singles because they are married.
And I worry that people will be bitter about my posts about singleness since I’m dating now. I’ve honestly worried about this ever since Caleb asked me to be his girlfriend.
And so I’m stuck.
But I want to become unstuck.
Thus I’m writing this journal-ish post. I want to just blog. I want to hear the clicks of my keyboard and see the red Grammarly lines pop up under my typos. I don’t want to care about SEO or a post’s readability or word count or Pinterest images. Those things are important, yes, but I just want to start writing again.
Because maybe if I just show up, the inspiration will follow.
So, my thought is that I’ll come and write random blog posts semi-consistently for a while, just to get back in the swing of things. ACTUALLY, get back in the swing of things. I’ve claimed “I’m back to blogging!!” after every post I’ve published since October LOL! (If you’re on the Joy Because Grace email newsletter… sorry that I’ve been accidentally crying wolf all this time…)
It’s 10:16 p.m. and I have to wake up at 6 tomorrow to go teach…. should probably log off and go to sleep now haha!
I’ll talk to you later! (Hopefully!)
-Kara
P.S. When I logged onto WordPress, I saw I had a draft for the 2019 Singleness Survey results.
You guys, I totally forgot I sent out that survey last month! That’s how off-the-radar blogging has been for me lately. LOL!
Perhaps I’ll publish that soon haha!
Meanwhile, I’m hitting publish on this post in three…. two…. one…..
